An inspirational story on building relationship with God
There is nothing sweeter than seeing a little girl walking with her father. She could be completely decked out in the cutest and most coordinated outfit, or wearing 5 different colors with her favorite pink tutu and matching Chucks. Her little arms extended to capacity while fingers holding on for dear life to the larger hand that represents her safe guard. It is so beautiful to watch a man, which is usually represented as logical before emotional, exemplify the ultimate patience and gentleness with her. He comes outside of that paradigm to ‘goo’ and ‘gaa’ at her with funny faces included. He does all of these things, just for the sound of her laughter.
I wish I could write from the perspective of that little girl, but I don’t know her story. Sometimes I close my eyes and try to image what that feels like. Quickly, my reality dismisses this visual as a dream that Disney never had the pleasure of drafting. I do know the story of a little girl. She grew up to be a woman that has never trusted a man in her life, and never feared one because of it. She can not define a strong man based off of experience. She enjoys being around men, and they make great friends. However, there is no picture next to the word faithful in her mental dictionary. When she loves, it is genuine, sincere, by choice, yet guarded. She has learned to retract every bit of emotion and feeling at the hint of possible hurt. You may not have met that little girl, and if you have not met the woman she grew up to be, let me introduce myself. My name is Mia Harris, pleasure to meet you.
One day I was spending time with the Lord, and he revealed all these things in my heart. He also showed me how my life experiences with men have affected the way I relate to Him. Even though my actions toward Him were not intentional, it became apparent that this was a true statement. I had trouble fearing God-even though I know that he can destroy my soul. I genuinely love the Lord-but not enough to trust him with my whole life/future. I had moments/days of being completely in love with The Lord-but never continuous. I could feel the Lord wanting to draw near- but keep Him at arms length, just in case.
I spent a few hours, after that revelation, going back to the places where it all started. I had to visit those moments to understand why I was reacting that way; the root cause. This was very painful. After all of this, I was still not convinced that the Lord was any different. With tears running down my face, I looked up and asked Jesus to show me how he could be better to me than man. I told him I didn’t believe Him in the areas of love and trust, but that I wanted to. I told Him everything that I was thinking/felt then laid my head down to rest.
I’m so glad that the Lord is not afraid of my tears, anger, cold heart, frets, and unbelief. To this day, He is still showing me that He is much better. He often reminds me of this at the deliverance of things I have asked Him for in prayer; my exact words to Him will come to mind. As if, the Lord was saying, “This is how I am better…” In fact, God has been so faithful to strip me of this deception that for the following years he saturated my life with friends that are married to REAL men of God. I saw the good, bad, and the ugly. I also saw them pray, laugh, have fun, travel, and serve the Christ together. They had healthy/stable/committed marriages. This brought so much healing to my soul. I could no longer say that great marriages are fairytales. Those couples were in my life for a season, but that season left me with great hope for myself and my future spouse.
If you don’t have a father, lost a father, or have one that is physically present but not active in you life; Jesus will fill the void! He will also restore all that has been broken and torn. He is our heavenly Father that is ever-present and loves us. All the things we need/expect men to be in our lives, he can/will be that for you. These are some the ways that He provides us:
“And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19 (NLT)
“for every animal of the forest is mine, and the cattle on a thousand hills. I know every bird in the mountains, and the insects in the fields are mine. If I were hungry I would not tell you, for the world is mine, and all that is in it.”
“But in that coming day no weapon turned against you will succeed. You will silence every voice raised up to accuse you. These benefits are enjoyed by the servants of the LORD; their vindication will come from me. I, the LORD, have spoken!” Isaiah 54:17 (NLT)
“He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.” Psalms 91:1 (ESV)
“And remember, I am with you each and every day until the end of the age.” Matthew 28:20 (ISV)
3. Wisdom/ Guidance:
“I know the plans that I have for you, declares the LORD. They are plans for peace and not disaster, plans to give you a future filled with hope.” Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
“Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Proverbs 3:6 (NLT)
“For the LORD gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding.” Proverbs (NIV)
“Now if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives to everyone generously without a rebuke, and it will be given to him.” James 1:5 (ISV)
“A person may plan his own journey, but the LORD directs his steps.” Proverbs 16:9 (GWT)
4. Love/ Comfort:
“…But the greatest of these is love.” 1 Corinthians 13:13 (NIV)
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16 (KJV)
“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” Psalms 23:4 (NIV)
“May your unfailing love be my comfort, according to your promise to your servant. Psalms 119:76 (NIV)
These are all promises that the Lord offers to all of us, His children. I am not 100% healed and delivered from everything, but he Lord has done a great work in my heart. I know that he will continue that which he has started; from this point to marriage, from marriage to being a parent myself.
“Beloved, now we are children of God, and it has not appeared as yet what we will be. We know that when He appears, we will be like Him, because we will see Him just as He is.” 1 John 3:2 (NASB)
I leave you with this prayer:
Lord Jesus, I thank you for every negative experience, hurt, and pain in my life. I know you will you use it for your glory. I know that you will use it as an opportunity to display your faithfulness and love for me. I thank you for not pulling away from me in my time of disbelief, unbelief, anger, lack of knowledge, and in the instability of my mind.
I thank you for you word in Proverbs 3:5 that instructs me to trust you with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding. I am aware that my understanding is shaped by my life experiences, but I know that I can not lean on that. I now apply your word to my heart that I may not sin against you in the area of trust. I will trust in you with all of my heart. By your Spirit, please help me to overcome fear that is attached to past experiences.
Lord I pray for every person (father, brother, boyfriend, husband or any other males in my life) that have ever been the source of the hurt or pain. I pray that you heal their hearts Lord. I pray that you will bring them closer to you and expose the dead things in their lives so that they can give them back to you. In turn I know that you will restore them. Please restore the relationship to a healthy status according to your will.
Lord I also pray for myself when I have been the source of pain to those individuals. Please forgive me, and heal that wound in their lives.
I pray these things in the name of Jesus Christ.